Nothing ever remains constant, it is often said. Then what about the changes we undergo ? Does the transformation that we observe in ourselves temporary or is it going to stay with us for long or may be forever? We keep on growing and we have to grow until eternity. But sometimes our conscious does not want to accept certain changes we go through. Our mind says its going to turn out pretty good for you. But our soul tries to push us back to attain one such change which it does not feel comfortable with. It pushes us so hard that we start to dislike this change and feel so shitty about it. We start to curse ourselves as to how could this just happen. We start hating ourselves about it. Somewhere may be we know that the change is must but then we just cannot accept ourselves with that change. At every point we start contradicting ourselves. What we feel, what we want to and what we actually do, everything just gets knotted up. Reason being may be how would people perceive us after the change. No, the actual reason being how would we perceive ourselves after the change. When we are not liking ourselves in the mere transformation, there is this hundred and ten percent assurance that we would not like ourselves after we are transformed into something we never wanted to within. Its just that the circumstances made us to do so.
The thing is may be we attain this transformation. But that is just the layer that lies over us. Because we can never be someone our soul does not want us to be. We may enact upon our change but the irony is we are ever going to stay the same within and this layer of transformation is too going to fade away soon.
So these changes are never constant. You change and you come back to what you are what you love to be.
After all, changes keep changing.
